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you made my day today

Usually not a fan of public feelings on my tumblr, but i guess i’ll make one exception

you kind of made my day today. you don’t even really know, nor do i even expect for this post to ever get to your ears, but you really did. On one end, you can see it as a stupid cup at Jamba Juice or maybe a small favor. You can see it as nothing at all, but unfortunately that’s not how i saw it. As you clicked away on your cash register and pushed my credit card back to my chest with that huge smile of yours, it really meant more than you can ever imagine. I still can’t get it off my mind.

I wasn’t raised with the perception that most people have. Some people are takers. They take opportunities and seize moments. They’re so used to taking ever sample, every second and every moment to life, when i really was never much of a taker. As modestly as possible, i guess i tend to give more than i take. I surprisingly tend to do more good than bad. A friend of mine calls me an unsung hero all the time, although i find the title hardly fitting.

The thing aout a hero is that he never really asks for anything in return and despite always helping people out, it’d be nice to be helped out in a while. I guess that’s where you came in. It’s funny how the simplest favor can have such a profound turn on how you see life. I’d be lying if i said that feelings from that small crush i had on a while ago weren’t coming back.

You never really did know that i liked you. Maybe you danced on the idea or i slipped and made it a little more obvious one moment, but i don’t think you ever really knew. And i don’t think i ever realized why until now, thinking about you all day. There’s something about the way you always put yourself down that i guess (in its cheesiest form) really makes me want to be a better man.

You don’t really fish for compliments or expect to be told you’re beautiful or talented, but when you hear those types of things - you just get so happy. You smile and laugh and I think the reason i liked you most was probably because i wanted to be the guy that told you the types of things you really deserved to here.

There was a time where i was a lot more romantic than i am now and all those nights sitting with you, listening to girl on fire or watching videos on youtube where you wished like you could dance or sing like the people we watched. All those nights of telling you that you could sing and dance just like those people. Those nights were some of my favorites.

I like(d) you, S. because you showed me that you can be the giver and still get your piece in the end. That by telling you all the things you always wanted to hear being said, i was also getting to say all the things i wanted to say. Thanks, S. you really made my day today.